Living life to the full?

Tonight I was planning to start, write and complete a job application for what is pretty much my perfect job. 

It has got to 1AM in the morning and I have realised I have to concede. 

I have left it too late

I have missed this opportunity

It is not realistic for me to complete this task

But I have to make a change

I have to document this dare

That I will challenge myself

I will stop living in the shadow of my expectations

I will make steps towards my dreams. 

Not that I fully know what those dreams are

But I know that things right now are not how I want them; not that they're bad...I hope you can get what I mean

And I will work to change that. 

Even if it's not managing to write an entire job application and CV in one night(!)

And so I'm publishing this - hoping that not too many work ppl will see this

And that my sleep deprivation and lack of proof reading don't stand out too badly :P

I am going to dream, pray, dance, surrender, learn to be myself.

Its going to keep me on my toes, I'm going to keep myself guessing 

And I'm not going to care about what other people think